Nights

" Live for the nights i'll never forget with the people i'll always remember." the quote I chose for yearbook. This explains my entire High school experience. All the memories I have aren't from actual school, they're from late nights, last minute plans, doing crazy things, people say high school is fun but in reality it isn't the teenage life is fun, that moment when I hear "Class of 2014"... then the real fun will start.

Blur

The sun rises,the sound of reality goes off.
I lay there with aching cold bones wishing I can fall back into my cloud of dreams.
In the mirror I look at myself ,ready to layer on all my disguises
8:00 hits the clock, I rush out the door looking like a plastic doll
but in the after fall that's all they want isn't it ?
Same cycle everyday, I'm really tired of black & grey

Exhausting

It was exhausting the way I loved you.

I threw every ounce of myself into it.

I dived head first at your heart,

but just as I should have hit the water 

I hit a brick wall.

Where a splash should have been

was a scream of pain.

Your guard was up,

and I was left battered and bruised, 

with a heavy heart, 

and an even heavier loss.

Roar

I am not a graceful person. I am not a Sunday morning or a Friday sunset. 

 My bones crack on a nightly basis. 

I fall from elegance with a dull thud, and I apologize for my awkward sadness.

 I sometimes believe that I don't belong around people, that I belong to all the leap days that didn't happen. 

The way light and darkness mix under my skin has become a storm. You don't see the lightning, but you hear the echoes.